every so often...

i have a date tonight. we're not going out. we're staying in. just me and the man and a bowl of hash. it's something we do every so often. yeah... the weather here has been spectacular. sunny days, warm winds from the east, tank topped, bare footed weather. i sat in the sun yesterday, with all my critters around me. and i needed that sun yesterday. i wish i could share it with some of you. i know it was dark and cold in places out there, but spring is coming. hang on. okay? the privet is blooming in my yard. i love the small pink blossoms. the feel of them in my fingers... this man of mine, my baby, he fills me to overflowing sometimes. the look in his eyes, the little smile on his face when i look up at him, my head in his lap, his hands in my hair. yesterday when i was sitting in the sun, i watched the happy critters around me, rolling in the grass, stretching in the sun. they amaze me. that they allow me to be part of their lives. every one of them is different, in their regard for me. some seem blissfully ignorant of my trials, others seem to mirror my moods. it is the same with the people that live here. all together, eighteen souls call this place home. eighteen. i counted, yesterday. the last time we did hash, we ate hershey bars and spent two hours kissing, tasting the chocolate on each other's tongues.... you know, i've lusted after all of you.